It has been over a year since I added to my blog. I haven't stopped writing but I just needed to put pen to paper, usually outside. Sitting at the computer held very little appeal especially after I broke my shoulder and had to type with one hand. I am once again typing with both hands and trying to get back into the habit of adding to this space. We will see how it goes. I'm afraid to close the account. I like having a record of the last few years in some form that I have easy access too and like everything else in my life, I am afraid to throw away anything, but that is a topic for another day.
I have discovered that aging is more of a challenge than I was anticipating. I am impatient, as if time is running out and no one in front of me is aware or concerned. Consequently they are determined to move at a snail's pace.
I look in the mirror and don't recognize the face staring back at me.
I start most mornings with my journal, a cup of coffee and Helen in the gazebo before the sun rises. I try to sort through my thoughts and emotions only to end up with entries that resemble Dear Diary, a To Do list or some other mundane conglomeration of mundane words !!
I set my intentions...Be Grateful, Healthy food choices, exercise etc. etc. etc. By the time I open the back door, I have already forgotten my good intentions and focus on the to do list and what's for breakfast !
I am learning to make Kefir. The thought of drinking milk that has been sitting on the counter growing bacteria for 24 hours sounds utterly awful, but it is good. Takes a little getting use to and some fruit, but the benefits, I'm told, are well worth the effort.
I am growing my legal crop of cannabis as well as a few hemp. After my hovercraft upset on my birthday last year I never want to be without the Magic Sauce that made the pain bearable. Olive oil, coconut oil, sweet almond oil and decarboxylated cannabis. Unfortunately, the cannabis totally took over the fragrance profile and I couldn't wear Magic Sauce in public.
There was a line in Shannon's journal that always comes to mind when I am going through one of these spells of apathy... "Everyone is doing well right now, and for that I am thankful." She was wise and wonderful and right....everyone is doing well right now, and for that I am thankful.