It's funny how you think you have everything figured out. 21 Day Manifesting Challenge. Intermittent Fasting. A new plan for controlling Hashimoto's. 10,000 steps a day. A blog entry everyday to keep my dieting on track. Well, today I weighed in at 177.6. I have gained several pounds in the last two weeks and my GERD is worse than ever !
I sleep sitting up. I take Armour Thyroid at 4:30 so that I can have coffee at 5:30. This time last year, my hair was falling out and I was so tired I couldn't think much less exercise or complete any project that required logic and thought. I had my hair cut very short so that there would be no weight pulling on the roots. I gave up my WEN shampoo because some other ladies had experienced hair loss. I gave up drier sheets and Tide Pods and perfume and my favorite whipped body cream, Amazing Grace by Philosophy. I did crossword puzzles and sudoku and spent a fortune in Andrew Lessman vitamins and supplements. I saw allergists, general practioners, endocrinologists, ENTs, OBGYNs and gastroenterologists. I had blood work, skin prick tests, a swallow test, a colonoscopy and an endoscopy.
I had finally decided that I had reached my expiration date and you know what happens once your warranty expires, everything falls apart.
With the arrival of 65 I decided not to go gracefully into the days of the crone. I will accept all of the wisdom. I will grow my hair out and allow it to turn gray... as long as it doesn't all fall out. I will try Dr. Denese and Dr. Dubrow and anyone else who has suggestions on how to preserve the wrapping on all of this gloriousness as long as I remember what really matters.
Today I had to cancel the automatic renewals on Skillshare, Microsoft Office and Noom. Even after an enthusiastic attempt to use all three, I failed miserably. I had to call Express Scripts to give them a new credit card so that they could auto bill for the Thyroid Medicine... and call CVS to let them know that they could put their prescription back on the shelf.
I scheduled my Annual Physical and made an appointment to get my eyes checked because the headaches are starting to concern me. I had to call Intuit and admit that I had lost the CD for this year's Turbo Tax that had arrived sometime in November, another auto renewal that I had to cancel, and they were kind enough to refund the price and tell me how to download what I would need.
I had had to spend an hour or so on my Benefits web site trying to determine whether or not my eye exam was covered by Medicare part A or B and then finally just made the appointment accepting that I have no Vision Plan and will pay anything necessary to be sure that I protect my eyesight.
Just as I was about to breathe a sigh of relief and satisfaction, I was informed that TurboTax was no longer supported by Windows 7, and I would have to update.
Of course my computer is no spring chicken and updating to 10, with the possibility of losing all saved photos and financial data proved too daunting and since I had a 65. refund from Best Buy, Jules and I decided to price a newer desktop computer.
I came home with a glorious "All In One" that I have 12 months to pay for interest free. It is white and the screen is bigger than our first tv. It only has one cord. Even I was able to figure that out and turn it on, even though the 'on' button was very well hidden, and I am finding it very inspiring to have yet another faceless friend who responds to my voice and my touch !
After rearranging my desk to accommodate the new addition, becoming totally demoralized because Opie decided he needed to lay claim to Helen's space by spraying the paper shredder and wondering if this grand new blank hard drive with more memory than I will ever need was symbolic of the journey I have chosen to embark upon at 65...Oh What the Hell, my brain needs a challenge to stay viable !!
Now that Typepad is here, AOL Desktop Gold is here, Picasa is safe on Old Faithful 7.0 and the well sprayed shredder is in the trash, I am feeling calmer about all the loose ends this day opened with.
I am still experiencing digital motion sickness, "digital motion sickness is when the brain is deceived that we are moving even if we are not" and "Studies show that women are more susceptible than men, as are those with a history of migraines or concussion. Anecdotally, researchers say that people with traits associated with the “Type A” personality — such as perfectionism or ambition — also seem to be more vulnerable. Nobody knows exactly why this might be, but one theory is that people with these traits may also have a tendency to be more alert and reactive to sensory inputs, similar to people who get migraines".
So... before I fall off the digital ship I have one more task. To try to find and install the purchased version of Microsoft Office Home Edition from a website, with a code... it all just seems too challenging. Oh that's right, I am a crone in the making, bring it on !