"Don't regret knowing the people in your life.
Good people give you happiness.
Bad ones give you experience.
The worst ones give you lessons
and the best ones give you memories."
The last few months have taught me in no uncertain terms the truth in that observation, and I am beginning to recognize that I am very tired of the "experiences and lessons".
When someone around you is in trouble, human nature dictates that we do what we can, when we can...but when you realize that your boundaries have disappeared and you start to resent the very ones you are trying to help, it's time to reevaluate.
Sometimes we lose sight of what we are giving away until we are depleted and the people and things that fill us have disappeared beneath a stack of someone else's priorities.
Today, I choose to let it go. To focus on what lightens my heart and fills my spirit.
Some habits are very hard to break but we all need to take a breath. Realize that if someone needs you, they will find you.... or they will find someone else.
I never want to become bitter or resentful because I have forgotten how to say "No". So many of us have grown up believing that we had to give ourselves away in order to be liked ... or worse yet, that we might disappoint someone. When we finally wake up and see that we are empty and exhausted, it's time to love ourselves, at least as much as we love everyone else, or there will be nothing left to give. I have decided that I want to be your happiness and your memories...not what's left after the lessons and experiences.
Taking a break and letting it go... knowing that my safety net, those of you who give way more that you get, will be there when I land.